Don't you see?

Have you ever felt that you are endlessly puzzled because your heart and your mind led you in completely different directions? Has it ever happened to you that you did something and then somehow you felt it's not good, but you kept doing it?

If so, don't worry, that's completely normal. It happens to everyone.
As Paul writes about this: I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. (Romans 7.15)

I am in the same situation now. Therefore few days ago one evening I asked God that I may get up in the morning knowing what to do without a doubt.
I asked God to wash my thoughts in my sleep so that every thought would be clear and every puzzlement would be gone.
I thought I will get up in the following morning and from that moment on everything will be fine. There will be no more questions.

But it didn't happen that way. Do you know what God said when I asked Him to wash my thoughts? He asked me this:
"Don't you see that I've been doing this for you for years?"

And then I saw Jesus persistently cleaning my mind. The creator of the universe is willing to do even this for me: He grabs a scrub brush and scrubs all the lies out of me without being asked to do that. He who shines in the light is willing to get dirty to make me clean.

And don't think that this is a privilege! He does it for you too for free, because He loves you endlessly with all of His heart. Just simply receive it.